Monday, April 18, 2005

what’s love? ano na nga ba ulit un?? honestly… i’m trying to forget it.. why? cos I was really hurt by my recent heartache..cos I fell deeply in love with the wrong person!! playboy, happy go lucky, immature, irresponsible, insensitive…lahat na ata ng bad qualities eh nsa knya! i know it’s unfair cos I don’t even know him that well pro un ung nkikita ko eh! but I still believe kse na first impression doesn’t always last…right? and I still fall for him!! Sabi nga nila… “masarap magamahal ng playboy!!” and I always do that!! Falling for those kind of guys…fallin’ for the wrong one…..feeling ko kc eh those kind of guys are just misunderstood by some people..and for me, I know that they have those good qualities that a good guy could have and they can still change for the better but they are just waiting for the right girl na ilabas ung mga qualities na un.. na makakahanap din cla ng katapat nla na makapagpapatino s kanila!! but it’s hard!!it’s really hard!! cos waiting for him… the “real” him.. is “like waiting for the rain in the middle of this drought…useless and disappointing…” and that’s why I have to move on!! that’s why falling in love is so damn hard!! you have to move on…but how can I if I still haven’t let go of him??? it’s a never-ending process…letting go and moving on…and I’m not good on that!

And now I know how much love can hurt….